How does a broken heart feel?
This was written in the year 2018 when I found a feeling of a stranger in my loved one. In times like this, I decided to pour out what I actually felt in the simplest form. There are many of you who may have had mutual feelings and experienced the same situation in one’s life. I have written a poem in Hindi (my first language) linguistic, please find the translation of the poem at the end of each line :
Kuch baatein ankhon mei reh jaati
( Some unsaid words can only be seen in eyes)
Woh baatein bas panoo mei gum ho jaati
( those words aren’t expressed but get lost in pages)
Kehna chathe hai bahut kuch
( there is an urge to express a lot)
Par uski Nazar mere par toh pade
( but for this to be said, I want the person to look at me with an intent)
Nazar toh idhr dikhti hai
(Eyes are pointed towards me)
Par dil ki Nazar Kahin aur hi hai
( in the heart the person belongs in different world)
Pass ho , par lafzon ko smjh nhi paa rhe ho
( you are right in front of me, but not able to comprehend my words)
Kya gunnah kia ku tumne ek baar bhi nhi suni
( What sin I committed that you didn’t even listen it once)
Kya Dil ki baatein suni nhi jaaate
( Do we not listen to what heart wants to say)
Kyun Dil teher jaaata hai kyunki woh palat ta nhi?
( Why my heartbeat stops when I don’t get to see you?)
Woh bas yahin Kareeb betha hai
( he is right in front of my eyes)
Par ek baar bhi ankhon ne palat kr nhi dekha
( but not even for once he bothered to look at me)
Ek baar aur bas baatein reh gyi
( Once again some words were not spoken)
Aur phir ek baar Dil pyaar krne se teher gya Mohabbat krne see
(Once again, the soul has refused to lift the cup of love )
ab toh Dil ne bol dia hai
(Now my heart has also spoken lament words)
Na laagao Dil kyunki yeh duniya nhi smjh paayegi tumhe
( Don’t give your heart to anyone because it won’t be able to understand you)
Tum nhi Bano ho yahn ke lie
( you aren’t meant for this place)
Par phir bhi yeh Dil ush Nazar ka intezaar krta hai
( Still, the heart longs for that look )
Kyun hai Dil masum
( Why my heart is filled with innocence? )
Aur masumiyaat ko kyun thukra jata hai
( Once again kindness has been taken for granted )
Aur phir phirse Dil Tut jaaata h
( and, the heart gets broken again in this world!)
After two years, I have revisited this poem in my notes, every time I could echo each word it has to offer. We live in a world where kindness has always been taken for granted, and because of this many people don’t allow light to enter their hearts. We all have gone through this, and lucky are those who don’t. But isn’t an excuse to sit back and not allow yourself to experience the color of love once again in life. We all have got one life, we have to choose its destination and not allow any barrier which can seize the joy of life forever. Let your heart grieve the pain, and later allow it to enjoy the sunshine of the world.
Let me know what do you feel about my writing, this is very raw writing with no edits. I’m looking forward to your comments. Thank you for reading my emotions which echo with yours too.
